1Blessed is the one
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the one
whose sin the LORD does not count against them
and in whose spirit is no deceit.
3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night
your hand was heavy on me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.
5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, “I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD.”
And you forgave
the guilt of my sin.
Walnut Creek Presbyterian Church – Walnut Creek CA
Observation: Here I find the God of the Real inviting me to be totally real with Him. In struggling with this invitation, I must accept that there is a great difference between “holding” and “hiding.” God invites me to hold every part of my life—my commitments, my thoughts, my actions, my relationships—openly before Him at all times. But often I hold them with closed hands, trying to conceal things from His sight. I tell myself: If I hide a part of me from Him, perhaps He will not know. And even when I admit that God is all-knowing, I may still convince myself that God will not care. And even if I admit that of course God knows and of course God cares, then I may still deceive myself and say, “What I can conceal, God cannot judge.”
Action: But none of this is real. God is real, and any attempt to avoid or conceal the full reality of my life will leave me joyless, fragmented, weak and anxious. So right now, choosing not to waste another moment living in this awful state, I come clean. I tell the whole truth to God, not the sanitized version. I lay the whole matter before God, not just the parts that make me look good or support my agenda. I hear the loving invitation of the Real God to live in the warm and healing light of reality with Him. I accept, opening my hands wide and laying my story bare.