28 Jesus said, “I am thirsty.” 29 A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it, put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus’ lips. 30 When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.” With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.
Jesus is on the far border of desperate need, at the end of the work God has for Him to do on that cross, such that His lips are cracked with thirst. But He moves over the edge of that vulnerable need and lets Himself fall in submission to the One who will catch Him.
I see God reminding me, I am thirsty, too. But, I’m hesitant to move to the limit of that thirst and beyond, to what feels like sheer helplessness. I sense God asking me to stop trying to manufacture strong pastoral and congregational identity and effectiveness, and to step into what feels like sheer weakness. Next week I will take each “voice” of doubt, discouragement, and defensiveness to God in prayer, releasing it there, bowing in submission to the only One who can quench my thirst.
Bill Azbell, Pastor
First Presbyterian Church – Concord